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A short book about checking the door, the oven and the email you sent, and feeling less sure each time

24 chapters11,656 wordsAbout 53 minFirst edition

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·Before you startThis is a short book and you can read it in two or three sittings. It's about one habit. You lock the door, walk to the car, and go back to push the…2 min
1Tuesday, twenty past eightIt's twenty past eight on a Tuesday morning. You've locked the front door and you're halfway to the car when you stop. Did you lock it? You remember the…3 min
2Why checking seems sensibleI don't want to start by telling you the door is locked. You know it's probably locked. That was never the point, and hearing it makes you feel…2 min
3"If I check again, I'll be sure"This is the belief the habit rests on, and it's the one that turns out to be exactly wrong. It says that doubt is a shortage of evidence, and another look…2 min
4"But I really can't remember doing it"You may accept the experiments and still say that they don't describe you, because you genuinely can't remember. It's not that the picture is a bit faded.…2 min
5"Going over it in my head doesn't count"At the lights you didn't go back for the straighteners. Instead you replayed the moment. The bathroom, the plug, your hand on the switch. You ran it three…2 min
6"My memory's just bad"Underneath a good deal of checking is a belief about yourself. Your memory's poor. Other people can lock a door and know they've done it. You can't, so…2 min
7"Better safe than sorry"This is the defence that feels most like adult sense. Even if the recheck mostly finds nothing, the consequences of the one time it would have found…2 min
8"I can't leave until it feels right"Some readers will recognise a different criterion. It's not that they're weighing risks. It's that they can't leave until something inside says done. They…2 min
9"I only do it when I'm tired or stressed"You may have noticed that the habit isn't steady. On a good morning you lock the door and go. On a bad one, after a poor night or before a hard day…2 min
10"It calms me down"It does. Your hand on the locked handle, and the doubt goes, and for a moment you're fine. That's not imaginary, and it's the whole reason the habit…2 min
11"Everyone checks"You may have noticed that your partner goes back to the door too. Your mother checks the gas. A colleague admits to reading sent emails. If everyone does…2 min
12"The email's different, I might have got it wrong"The door is one kind of check. The email is another, and it deserves its own chapter, because the argument for it sounds stronger. A locked door is locked…2 min
13"What if this is the one time?"Every rechecker has a story. The morning, years ago, when they went back and the iron was on, or the door was open, or the email had the wrong attachment.…2 min
14"I'll just ask, it's no trouble"There are rechecks that don't look like rechecks. "Did I lock the door?" said to your partner in the car. A photo of the hob taken on the way out, to look…2 min
15The circuit before bedThe morning has a mirror, and for many people the mirror is worse. The circuit before bed. Back door, front door, hob, oven, plugs, windows, the…3 min
16What the checking costsYou may think of the habit as costing a minute a day and some private embarrassment. I think it costs more, and most of this chapter is my own reckoning.…2 min
17Checking once, properlyThe first practical step is to make the once worth trusting. Most of the checking research points here. A check done with attention makes a vivid memory.…2 min
18Letting the doubt be a feelingYou've done the once and left. Now the doubt arrives, in the car or at the desk, and this chapter is about what to do with it. This is my own method, and…2 min
19The email, the alarm and the things you can't touchSome checks don't have a door to walk back to. This chapter is the method for those, and it's mine throughout. The sent email. The once is before sending.…2 min
20The decisionThis chapter asks you to decide something. It comes late because at the start it would have sounded like the advice you've always been given, which is to…3 min
21When it's more than a habit, and other hard casesWhen the checking has taken over. If it takes up a lot of your time, causes real distress, or interferes with work, relationships or leaving the house…3 min
22Tuesday againIt's twenty past eight on a Tuesday morning, some weeks on. You lock the front door and stand for a second with your hand on it. "Door locked, twenty past…2 min
·NotesThis book gives general information about an everyday habit. It isn't medical advice, and it's no substitute for assessment and treatment where checking…4 min